Sad And Heart Broken But I Still Live For Her

This few days i busying with something that suddenly bother mi a lot.. i live happily always since 180806 but this thing suddenly happen i also dun realli one to make it veri clear.. even this thing happen but u noe i`m being loving u always ,i have never stop loving u any moment of the time.. u are always the strength to mi tat keep mi moving letting mi feel my existence in this world .. even i dunno why.. maybe this is how much i love u .. U always say i treat u veri gd, u noe why, not i dun wan to treat u bad cuz i dunno how to stop treating u gd and the giving the best i can to u.. i noe all along u should noe about it.. this period of time until the 310509 i will treasure every thing.. i will nvr forget any moment that we being together.. all the happy moment we share and we had , thing dun change just because of sad moment, why should happy moment being forgotten just because of sad moment or because of normal life tat has nothing special happen to us during the peace period .. i do believe LOVE is not onli about feel but it also included Habits, Resposibility , Commitment ,how much u noe about each other almost everything about her, from her character ,from the ways she eat ,she sleep ,she speak ,she bath ,she smile...life tat go without her is hard , every moment i think about it still hurt but i dun care all my injuries i just simply want to be together with her.. i still always trust we have love.. During my ns life i always say sian all this , family got problem not enough money , extra ,muz chiong all the thing is not tat important anymore compare to u.. i endure every moment of my tough life in commando just because of u.. u are the pushing factor that always keep mi moving...Even now u give mi plenty of money ,a car ,a model as a galfriend ,let mi live until 100 yrs old there not use cause i simply just wan U. i realise life is not how much u breathe but it is the moment u take in the breath and breathing the same moment with who u wan u love .. I make a promise whenever u see mi when i`m still wearing ring thing have never change .. i believe there not such thing as forever but i always believe in loving u always.. from the veri first moment we together i had nvr stop putting more love in u and our relationship.. i understand how u feel now, but just remember i dun wan u to remember my injuries and afraid to love mi, it make mi even feel more hurt if u do so .. i willing to give time but i wish u give mi the second chance to love u in everything i got and pls do love mi with everything u got .. the past is not important .. it all already past wat i wan is to create new memory with u until i dun have anymore strength to catch my last breath to tell u I LOVE U!!! When i typing everything here i wrote from heart with tearing drops from the first word i wrote.. I can hear the beats of my heart is slowing down days after days started to feel i can`t live without u , getting strengthless to breathe , i can`t even hear the breath i blow out from my lungs , starting feel why should i ever exist in this world .. but i can`t do tat .. cause i`m waiting for xiao zhu zhu to come back home.. i muz over come any obstacles tat run in my way.. i muz work for u even more to earn it back ..dun ever forget ur zhu ren is always there for u, one day if xiao zhu zhu coming back zhu ren will open his arms welcome u back with a brand new person i`m going be for u.. a person where u can trust ,love with wat all u got . remember zhu ren is the one waiting and working hard even he is struggling he had never waste any moment of his time loving and missing u..zhu ren is a person tat mend for xiao zhu zhu and willing to spent the rest of his time to love, take care of her when she come back until he have to close his eyes to say bye to this world while saying i have never regret i love u and the days our heart is shot by the love angels ,if i can again i wish the next life time i still wan to be with u no matter wat ... (waiting for xiao zhu zhu loving u not onli from heart but even from my soul until the end of the world)